I have a dream.
We all desire a better life and happiness. We all desire the achievement of better health and relationships.
Sometimes we kill ourselves in order to make those things a reality. It becomes that much harder when the world crumbles around you.
I heard my boss give me the horrible news that I was seriously hoping he wouldn’t give
Normally the weekend work I received was more like an avalanche of snow we might expect to come across while I worked from my home in the snowy purple mountains of Western North Carolina.
Instead my inbox was empty. Nothing for Friday… Only a deep sense of dread for Saturday and then on Sunday my boss broke that terrible news to me.
“James, we have to totally restructure or business. And you just have not made it into the new plan.”
Even though I was dreading the news, his words hit me like a ton of bricks.
A pregnant and very sick wife at home. 3 young kids to help watch, and a very long road to work recovery in a town that favored hiring the good ole’ boy over the newcomer to town. The fact of the matter hit me hard–a month or two of struggling to find work made the reality of my situation hard to live through.
I had hit pretty low, but I was not at rock bottom.
Don’t let temporary situations drive you to fall prey to stress and anger overload and collapse
I had studied life and time management in business school, but the raw pain and frustration of having a hard time finding work and wanting to do something with my life to help others and transcend my problems caused me to make my life an around the clock race.
I was only getting 2 hours of sleep at the time.
I was pushing myself to go harder and harder. I was learning more about making a website and reaching out to the world so I could be a help to those in marriage struggles, but I wasn’t taking care of my body or my frail nerves.
Please learn from me and my mistake. Even when your heart hurts and you cannot stand to sleep because you want your situation to change so much… take care of your self anyways.
Do it so you can have a body and mind fit for reaching your dreams of love and happiness again.
Do it before you have a break down.
If you push yourself hard enough without taking care of yourself… it is bound to happen. This is especially true when you are under emotional stress and anger.
Recovery and love to show for it
Yes, it seems like my nervous breakdown was so long ago, but when I look at how little my 2 year old is–and how our life with her as a cherished daughter started out in such difficult circumstances… I am thankful to God that He was there for me in my lowest time. God made sure that I had a wonderful wife to encourage me and give me a few days to recover.
She is lively, loving, and smart as a whip… Perhaps I am referring to my little 2 year old. Perhaps I am referring to my wife. Maybe both at the same time.
I think my wife perked up in excitement for life when I was at my lowest–just like our 4 kids do for us now as they bring joy to our lives daily. Again. Take care of yourself so you can live another day and gain another victory in life.
Please share your story in the comments. We all need to hear the sorrows and successes of others in this life. God bless you.